Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Of Demons...and Angels

I came late to writing as an expression of creativity. My husband will tell the story of how I simply went to another room one evening several years ago and began writing the stories that had been clattering around in my head for a long time. He still cannot figure the why of it but...I digress.
As far as writing goes, the Demon Fear has always been hanging around nudging me to quit, questioning my ability. My challenge each and every day has been to overcome the notion that my books are not good enough. (Yes, they are all good books!) Or that they would never get published. Or any of the other “fears” many, perhaps most, writers suffer. Those of you who write know of what I speak. I always used the excuse that my joy was in the writing and that the “business” of writing took too much time and aggravation to pursue publication. But as soon as I attended a presentation on self-publishing by author Sarra Cannon, I knew deep down that this was the way for me.
As I trod that path—doing everything that needed to be done to edit, prepare and design the first book of the series, the Demon Fear began once again to rear its ugly head. It is apparently in my nature to summon such “demons” yet I knew I was at the point of no return. Do it or not. Courage was in short supply and I was in dire need of something...anything to push me forward on the journey to achieving my dream.
The push I needed turned out to be a gentle shove of a very special kind.
On September 29, 2011, I realized that it was the Feast of the Archangels—Michael, Gabriel and Raphael. Having been educated in Catholic schools, angels are part of my life and are also integral parts of the first two books, “Children of Angels” and “Angels Flying with One Wing.” This had to be a sign. By the end of that memorable day, I had uploaded “Children of Angels” to Kindle, Barnes & Noble and Smashwords. September 29 was the day I published without hesitation and without fear. The next day my website was up and running. I now pursue my dream with no fear, no hesitation and no doubt, thanks to my three Angels. I don’t expect to sell a gazillion copies of my books. That would be nice, of course. What I do know is that the people who need to read the stories my books tell will come to read and enjoy them.
“Demon Fear” is nowhere to be found now and my writing life as well as life in general is indeed pretty darn cool. I’ve got Angels—Archangels—in my corner.

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